Loving-Kindness

Practicing loving-kindness I found that it brought peace and a quietness to my mind that was very nice. It was nice to give myself the time to calm my thoughts. On Sunday I lost my job. There was no real reason for this. The boss had said that I was a great person and employee. He had also said that I had made improvements but it just wasn't enough for what he needed. I was fine with this but it was the way he went about doing it that really pissed me off, excuse my language. I had worked for him for over 4 1/2 years and was always there when I needed to be. I worked very hard and did the best job that I could. I had no idea that this was coming. There was no warning at all. He had rehired the person that was there before me without me knowing and just told me I was done. I understand that he is running a business and that he needs to do the best for his business but he could have talked to me, asked me to step down and go back to cashiering. I was loyal and worked hard yet he let me go in a way that made me feel like I had done something wrong. He even said that I had not, I just didn't do the job to his expectations. He was very underhanded and sneaky. We had a pretty good employee/boss relationship. We talked a lot and shared stories everyday. After this happened, I had a hard time with this exercise when channeling my thoughts towards him. My feelings had been hurt and he treated it in the wrong manner in my opinion. Others felt the same way. Everybody else felt the same way. So working this exercise was a challenge for me. I am going to continue practicing loving-kindness in hopes that it will help me to get through these feelings that I am going through.

Unit 3 blog post

After taking some time to thing about where I am with my physical, spiritual and psycholgical well-being this is where I would rate them

My physical well-being is at about a 5. I just quit smoking again and started back at the gym. My goal is to finish the 5k that I signed up for at the end of the month. i am pretty excited to get back to feeling good. I have started back to walking and will slowing start to add jogging to that little by little every day.
My spiritual well-being is probably about a 4. I have not been in touch with my inner self or my higher power at all recently. I feel too busy to do anything. I think it is so very important for me to get this number up. I am going to start doing more reflections every day.
My phychological well-being is at a 5. I have been just too busy and really having a hard time as of late. Working full time, going to school full time and trying to keep a house hold is too much some days. I feel like I am breaking. Then I have been very sick the past couple days which I really wonder if it has something to do with the overload. My goal here is to get back to feeling strong and confident. i need to get to the gym, talk with my close friends and take some time out for myself on a daily basis.

The meditation this time was alright. As always I was interrupted once again. Never fails! I liked the idea of the color thing but I just could get into it. First it was the dogs, then my older son. And as I had said I am not feeling well so it is very hard to think of anything but how horrible my stomach feels.